Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Several people own it.
Others envy it.
Some shun it.
When it lands on you, your peace, what do you do?
Do you fall down like a dog on your back and wait for the sniff to pass? Or do you fight back?
How do you fight back? Tell me, I want to know. I need to know.
Is it words? Is it actions? Is it nothing?
I react badly when I think people I am close to are trying to control me in some way
I used to allow it regularly. I have changed. But sometimes I can slip back into old ways.
It's the person I used to be that emerges periodically when things become uncomfortable. I don't want her to come out.
Why do I allow this feeling still?
Power. Control. If I clench my fist, it stays. If I extend my hand, can I let go?
Will I, can I just let go?